RUSH HOURS!!

well, life has just changed..from the moment i received a phone call from DR KAsey, way back in pinas rt after holy week, felt like i had an instant change of life...things werent as easy, to decide wether i accept the job offer here in singapore, or just manage my clinic and continue life the way it is...i prayed hard so i can get answers to my confusions. I was thinkin that rare chances like this knocks once in a lifetime. ..til i finally fixed evrythin' like havin a vet to manage my clinic, had a yaya for my dogs, talked to mom regarding family set up ( me and my clinic versus her apo :), settled accounts, settled bills, etc..etc..i had a little time believe me!.. Plus the pressure of havin melvin, who that time was in pinas adding up all the trouble i came up with..i had to fix my plane ticket, which i had a hard time inserting the schedule of confirming it because i was sooooo busy..i was so preoccupied..i needed to arrange a despedidda party coz my clients and friends were all requesting for it..i even had a last minute rebooking 'coz i had to go home to the province coz my lolo was in the hospital 50/50 and everybody was telling me to see him for the lastime before i leave coz he might die anytime..(on my third day here in singapore, he passed away)..And that was it!! As soon as i got to the airport i knew it, it is goin to be a different stage of my life.. Sitting there waiting for departure, i couldnt explain the feeling of separation anxiety..i was talking to a new friend, and it wasnt obvious at all the fear i had inside me..the fear of facing a new life.. fear of leaving pinas, leaving my love ones, leaving my simple happiness...and a fear of a new ME...
I woked up the following day having a diffferent world already,..(this is it!this is it).. i was silently crying in my room.. it was the very first day without my dogs kissing me and greeting me a happy morning..but i just told myself that sooner or later il get used to it..at least for the meantime.. i still have the choice to change evrythin though..but for now, i just need to embrace this new life..welcome it into my system.. try to love it and try to experience the difference..whew! God be with me...